If I planned to work for WW, I would either have to clean up my act or lie about things when I write here. But I don't plan to work for them (nothing against WW, I just don't time have time to be employed!) so I am going to be honest and admit that I haven't tracked points since Thursday. I've been aware of them mentally but we all know that can be a slippery slope.
The thing is, both birthdays were important to me and I knew I was going to celebrate them. I was not going to weigh and calculate the cupcake on Friday or the lemon bar on Saturday. Friday's dinner was from a local restaurant and Saturday's was deep dish pizza. Under normal circumstances, normal since WW anyway, I wouldn't have chosen those meals on consecutive days.
So why did I do ok this past weekend? I consciously chose lower point meals before dinner both days. On Friday I had ice cream but no cupcake. I can't say much about Saturday's choices, especially since I finished hubby's three bites of lemon bar after eating my own.
On Sunday I had an omelet with veggies and no cheese. It came with hash browns, and I had a few forkfuls but they weren't worth the points (whatever the points may have been) so I enjoyed the dry toast with a smear of mixed fruit jelly instead. Mixed fruit is my favorite although I'm not much of a jelly or jam fan.
So what is my point? My point is that I'm automatically moderating myself now. I don't have to spend much time thinking should I choose A or B, and don't panic when I don't know the point value in something. Was I perfect in my WW choices? No, but life isn't perfect. By the way, WW doesn't beat anyone up for not being perfect, it really is about educating yourself and making the best choices.
I'm of an age where I try not to beat myself up about anything. I spent decades not measuring up to who and what I thought I should be. I could compile a long list of what I am not, of what I have not done, BUT....I could come up with a longer list of good things that I am and have done. That isn't ego, that is a simple truth.
I will continue to celebrate birthdays without guilt, but they will be smaller portions and you know what? No one else notices that. I still get the taste. I still get the joy of being part of the happy times. As long as I don't laugh with food in my mouth, no one sees or judges what I am eating.
I was down another .8 pounds yesterday, a total of 57 pounds gone. Once upon a time, I would have thought "yes, but I could have been better if I ate X instead of Y and if I was exercising". Once upon a time is for storybooks. My life is real. I did eat Y and I haven't started exercising yet (although tag with a 5 year old surely counts for something!) and in 9 months, I've lost 57 pounds. Looking back on previous years of thinking I had to be perfect or follow WW exactly and without a slip, where did it get me? Nowhere.
Onward, downward and fabulous!
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