I've been a slacker, both in weight loss effort and in posting here.
I haven't given up....far from it....I've just been comfortable and frankly, have given myself a break on watching every point.
Why? Sometimes I overextend myself. I try to "be" and do too many things all at the same time, and I need to be good if not excellent at them. Whoa....egotistical? I don't think it is ego because I'm not looking for approval from others, it is an internal struggle. Maybe it is the Virgo in me.
Anyway, I've been taking a lot of art classes and enjoying them....until I do something that either greatly disappoints me (ugh! that looks like hell!) or something that I simply do not enjoy but it was the scheduled lesson.
I was always a good student. I never skipped school, never missed turning in an assignment, never copied someone else's work. I loved school then and like taking classes now. The difference is that I am 63 years old, closing in on 64 (how the hell did that happen??) and I am not getting grades on what I do, no degree is being earned and no one is buying my art because I'm not selling.
So what is my problem?
I can be busy and still be relaxed if all of the busy-ness is fun stuff that I want to do. When the fun stuff plus the stuff I should be doing slams into the unexpected and a very full week of scheduled events, I become the high school student who didn't sleep well on Sunday nights because I was overly concerned about the week ahead, both classes and socially. My social life during my public school days was never ideal. I was, to be a blunt, a fat kid for most of those years and was a pariah to many. I had friends but looking back, it was all rather shallow as I only maintained one of those friendships after graduation.
I sometimes need to remind myself that I've come a long way and that I don't have to prove myself to anyone and I should be as nice to myself as I try to be to others. Since repeating this to myself often the past few weeks, I've found a way to indulge in excesses at parties (back to back to back two weeks ago!) and holidays (Memorial Day and July 4th) and still lose slowly. I know that the closer one gets to goal, the slower the loss becomes. Part of it is probably metabolic but I know that a big part is complacency.
When I'm around someone who thinks a person must be productive all the time, I tune them out or consider how agitated they seem when they are preaching that nonsense. It is okay to sit and enjoy the quiet.
I've given myself permission to learn some lessons without doing the project as planned. I've given myself permission to enjoy everything around me without truly losing control of what I eat. I am almost back to my lowest weight in this journey, something that has been up and down 3 pounds since the first of the year. I think I am ready to focus on the finish line, if you want to call goal the finish line. Truthfully, I know that this isn't the case. Maintaining goes on forever, there is no finish. It's rather like housework and laundry.
I think I am ready to start some form of exercise too. Gosh, I hate that word. Guess I need to change my attitude toward that, eh?
Despite chocolate pudding over the past weekend and two fewer Hershey bars in the cottage refrigerator, I am down .6 from last week and that was down .2 from the party-party-party weekend. I'm okay and I plan to stay okay.
Onward and downward, 11.8 to goal.
Tuesday, July 5, 2016
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
Chocolate won't help the struggle
There's a new flash for you, right?
It isn't the one slice of birthday cake at a family party or the once a month dinner and dessert out with friends that was hurting me the past few months. I've been losing all along with birthdays, holidays and dinners out. What was different the past few months?
It isn't the one slice of birthday cake at a family party or the once a month dinner and dessert out with friends that was hurting me the past few months. I've been losing all along with birthdays, holidays and dinners out. What was different the past few months?
An open candy dish
This isn't my dish, but if it were, I could easily avoid the Almond Joy and Snickers bars and would pride myself on avoiding the M&Ms because they easily become mindless eating. Does anyone eat only 5 of them? I recognize that about them and declared this a long time ago:
So what's with the other stuff? They are little. Without even a lid on a dish to act as a temporary barrier, one that might slow you down a nanosecond to think, it was way too easy to grab one of those little Hershey bars (yum!) or second place Crunch bars. I won't bother to list the descending order of preferences but I could.
It should have ended with Cadbury Eggs at Easter but it didn't. I pretended I was buying candy for others who come and go here, and I honestly did avoid the variety packs that heavily favored my preferences (those evil little Hershey or Milky Way bars) but if they were in the mix....guess who ate them?
I KNOW and chances are YOU (my unseen readers) know that those little candy bars have calories and WW points that count, and eating three of them triples that count. Profound, right?
What is this post REALLY about?
I'm not saying I will never eat candy again. I'm saying anyone with weight issues has to learn what their weaknesses are and figure out how to live with them. I know ice cream is one of mine and I've come to grips with that. I honestly didn't think candy was a problem. I do like chocolate but I don't think I'm ever out of control with chocolate itself. There is something about these little individually wrapped candies that gets me.
I came home from a cruise in early February with a gain of 6.4 pounds. The following week, 4.6 pounds of that was gone. Then came Valentine's day and I was up .5 but the following week that was gone again. I have been a seesaw since then. Up .5 or .6, then down the same amount. Or up twice in a row and then down by 2 pounds only to go up again and again.
GREAT BIG FACT #1:
If I didn't keep coming to WW, if I had said "oh hell" and thrown in the towel, instead of being up and down 1-2 pounds, I would probably be 10 pounds heavier by now. We all know how easy it is to slip into old habits. The love of ice cream that I'm in control of might have gotten a stronger voice and insisted on consoling me over the weight gain that those little candy bars caused.
GREAT BIG FACT #2:
Once upon a time I would have been down on myself because of this, especially in light of many wonderful WW members telling me that they think of me when they are struggling and that they view me as an inspiration. Most of of us are our worst critics and for years I was no difference. I would encourage someone else struggling in this manner but wouldn't have cut myself any slack at all. It pays to be nice to yourself. We respond to positive comments from others, we need to hear that from that voice inside too. I never stopped giving myself positive feedback, I just had to stop washing it down with a Hershey's.
GREAT BIG FACT #3:
I love that I look and feel better. I love that I can shop in the regular size departments instead of plus sizes where styles and colors are always more limited. I love that I have more energy to play tag with my grandson. I love that I have been off blood pressure medication for a year. I love that I am in comfortable in my own skin, figuratively and literally.
Figuratively, I am not bothered by someone encouraging me to have something I don't want to eat by saying "one dessert or one drink isn't going to hurt you" because I know it won't. I just don't want it, or if I do, I will eat/drink it and don't need someone wondering if I am blowing my "diet". Their concerns are theirs, not mine.
Literally, the loose skin on my arms has been a badge of honor since a busy body informed me "you know you will never get rid of that". I sometimes toy with the idea of beating her into submission with my bat wings but I'm usually too busy and that goes against my pacifist ways. Most of the time
If I were more vain, perhaps that would bother me, but if I were more vain, maybe I never would have gotten to highest weight. Perhaps being more vain would make me a less likable person and while this sounds a little boastful, I know that I am likable and that pleases me.
If I were more vain, perhaps that would bother me, but if I were more vain, maybe I never would have gotten to highest weight. Perhaps being more vain would make me a less likable person and while this sounds a little boastful, I know that I am likable and that pleases me.
If someone thinks I'm a little shinier now, it isn't that the essence of who I am has changed, but with less weight dulling the shine, I undoubted am brighter and more confident.
After a week of awareness with only two Butterfinger minis consumed and back to my regular menus, including occasional fast food meals (just being honest, not claiming they are excellent choices), I am down 2.8 pounds from last week, a new total of 86.5 pounds gone!
Onward and downward!
Monday, March 21, 2016
Slipping into the future
I've been a little lax in posting...a month since my last post. Really? 
My absence here has been partly busyness and partly frustration. I'm not going to lie and say the program doesn't work, the truth is that I wasn't working the program. After losing most of the cruise weight gain (6.4 pounds), I have been up and down the same half pound for weeks.
Losing weight on WW or any other sensible plan is about what you eat as well as what you think. Eating smaller amounts, going all non-fat, whatever your plan is will work but your head needs to wrap around changes if they are going to be permanent. I truly feel that I am eating to live rather than living to eat now, but that doesn't mean there aren't little slip ups and set backs.
WW rolled out the new Smart Points with an emphasis on less added sugars and processed foods. No body can honestly argue that merits of this. On the old Points Plus program, frozen WW treats, items that I enjoyed, had a much lower point value. In meetings, we discussed how treats aren't really treats if you have them every day. Okay, I get that. I stopped buying them.
I came home from the cruise up a bit in weight, but in a good frame of mind. After losing 4-point something of the 6 pounds without effort (just going back to how I had been eating). I didn't expect to struggle with the remainder. A pre-meeting discussion with other members last week shined a light on what might be problem.
Ever want some chocolate, something that feels like ice cream or candy or maybe salty snacks are your downfall? You don't want to cave and dive into a vat of ice cream or the family size bag of chips and sometimes distracting yourself just isn't working. I lost 85 pounds on the Points Plus program and that was eating frozen treats almost every day of the week. Since being home from the cruise I've been subconsciously looking for them. Some nights I ate fruit, fruit and more fruit. Healthier than candy but in excess and still not satisfying my craving. When I say craving, I'm sure it was mental as much if not more than physical. Other nights I had something not at all good points-wise, such as a package of Pop Tarts. I don't even truly like Pop Tarts but I was like a junkie looking for a fix.
On the way home from last Monday's meetings, I bought my usual stock of fruits, veggies and dairy and included two types of WW frozen treats. Not only are they greater in point value now, they are much smaller. Bummer........BUT....get this: they satisfied that urge the three nights I had them this past week and I was down 2 pounds this morning.
As I have said before, Weight Watchers works but I am not a model member. I don't do everything by the book. Everyone has to find out what works for them. The WW treats help me by being instant portion control and in truth, since I rarely go into extra weekly points, I can afford them. Now that that they are back in the house I have given myself permission to have them, I don't think I will crave them the way I did the past month.
Minds can be funny things to figure out, even when they're our own.
I'm hoping, as I slip into the future, to reach my goal by my anniversary date on June 2nd. If I don't make it by then, I'll still be okay. As the saying goes:
Eighty-five point four stars of lost weight is out there, reminding me how strong I am, what I've learned and how far I've come.
Yay me!
My absence here has been partly busyness and partly frustration. I'm not going to lie and say the program doesn't work, the truth is that I wasn't working the program. After losing most of the cruise weight gain (6.4 pounds), I have been up and down the same half pound for weeks.
Losing weight on WW or any other sensible plan is about what you eat as well as what you think. Eating smaller amounts, going all non-fat, whatever your plan is will work but your head needs to wrap around changes if they are going to be permanent. I truly feel that I am eating to live rather than living to eat now, but that doesn't mean there aren't little slip ups and set backs.
WW rolled out the new Smart Points with an emphasis on less added sugars and processed foods. No body can honestly argue that merits of this. On the old Points Plus program, frozen WW treats, items that I enjoyed, had a much lower point value. In meetings, we discussed how treats aren't really treats if you have them every day. Okay, I get that. I stopped buying them.
I came home from the cruise up a bit in weight, but in a good frame of mind. After losing 4-point something of the 6 pounds without effort (just going back to how I had been eating). I didn't expect to struggle with the remainder. A pre-meeting discussion with other members last week shined a light on what might be problem.
Ever want some chocolate, something that feels like ice cream or candy or maybe salty snacks are your downfall? You don't want to cave and dive into a vat of ice cream or the family size bag of chips and sometimes distracting yourself just isn't working. I lost 85 pounds on the Points Plus program and that was eating frozen treats almost every day of the week. Since being home from the cruise I've been subconsciously looking for them. Some nights I ate fruit, fruit and more fruit. Healthier than candy but in excess and still not satisfying my craving. When I say craving, I'm sure it was mental as much if not more than physical. Other nights I had something not at all good points-wise, such as a package of Pop Tarts. I don't even truly like Pop Tarts but I was like a junkie looking for a fix.
On the way home from last Monday's meetings, I bought my usual stock of fruits, veggies and dairy and included two types of WW frozen treats. Not only are they greater in point value now, they are much smaller. Bummer........BUT....get this: they satisfied that urge the three nights I had them this past week and I was down 2 pounds this morning.
As I have said before, Weight Watchers works but I am not a model member. I don't do everything by the book. Everyone has to find out what works for them. The WW treats help me by being instant portion control and in truth, since I rarely go into extra weekly points, I can afford them. Now that that they are back in the house I have given myself permission to have them, I don't think I will crave them the way I did the past month.
Minds can be funny things to figure out, even when they're our own.
I'm hoping, as I slip into the future, to reach my goal by my anniversary date on June 2nd. If I don't make it by then, I'll still be okay. As the saying goes:
Yay me!
Monday, February 15, 2016
Consequences, Life and Balance
The good news is that I lost 4.6 pounds of the 6.4 pound vacation gain. I still firmly believe that part of that was water retention from more sodium than normal the last few days before weighing in, but obviously I am happy with the loss.
The bad news? There is no bad news.
I splurged not only on vacation but at a family birthday celebration last week. I had two Coney dogs minus buns, ice cream for dessert and a Miller Lite that evening. Perhaps paring that down and skipping some of the chocolate floating around due to Valentine's Day, I would have lost the whole amount gained but I am okay with what I've done.
I have more weight to lose so I'm not in maintenance mode but I am learning how far I can stray when the occasion arises. Sometimes the best choice will still be a high number of WW points but there is more to life than counting points. Don't get me wrong, they ARE important but we do have our weekly reserve that we can dip into, and sometimes a person just has to do something off the chart.
The consequences of overeating is weight gain. I don't plan to do this often, I've worked too hard to get this far.
Life is to be lived. That doesn't mean eat whatever you want all the time or you'll gain an unhealthy amount of weight again and that will shorten the life you are anxious to enjoy living.
Balance is not a cookie in each hand, as tempting at that can sound. Balance is knowing when you can take a cookie, eat it and not slide back into bad habits (I could have sworn that column of Oreos was full a minute ago!) and when you need to remind yourself that you don't really need that cookie. It is just a cookie. It is not unconditional love. It is not world peace, the cure for dreaded diseases or anything at all magical. Balance is enjoying it if you do decide to eat it, but knowing having four more won't improve the taste you had with that first bite.
Onward and downward.
The bad news? There is no bad news.
I splurged not only on vacation but at a family birthday celebration last week. I had two Coney dogs minus buns, ice cream for dessert and a Miller Lite that evening. Perhaps paring that down and skipping some of the chocolate floating around due to Valentine's Day, I would have lost the whole amount gained but I am okay with what I've done.
I have more weight to lose so I'm not in maintenance mode but I am learning how far I can stray when the occasion arises. Sometimes the best choice will still be a high number of WW points but there is more to life than counting points. Don't get me wrong, they ARE important but we do have our weekly reserve that we can dip into, and sometimes a person just has to do something off the chart.
The consequences of overeating is weight gain. I don't plan to do this often, I've worked too hard to get this far.
Life is to be lived. That doesn't mean eat whatever you want all the time or you'll gain an unhealthy amount of weight again and that will shorten the life you are anxious to enjoy living.
Balance is not a cookie in each hand, as tempting at that can sound. Balance is knowing when you can take a cookie, eat it and not slide back into bad habits (I could have sworn that column of Oreos was full a minute ago!) and when you need to remind yourself that you don't really need that cookie. It is just a cookie. It is not unconditional love. It is not world peace, the cure for dreaded diseases or anything at all magical. Balance is enjoying it if you do decide to eat it, but knowing having four more won't improve the taste you had with that first bite.
Onward and downward.
Friday, February 12, 2016
After the cruise...
Our vacation was wonderful. Wonder. Full. Won. Der. Full. However you spell it or break it down, it was great.
While I didn't track, I was aware of what I ate, even the days I had ice cream numerous times. Yes, a cruise can be a dangerous place for a weight watcher, but I gave myself permission to cut loose and found that I didn't eat as much as I thought I might. I just plain don't feel good if I am too full and lord knows I don't want to outgrow my clothes!
At Monday's weigh in I was up 6.4 pounds. Based on how I feel this morning and by our home scale, I think part of that was water retention. My fingers felt pudgy on Monday and that is a definite sign for me. I'll know for sure how much damage my vacation did at my next weigh in. I have gone back to my new normal this week, nothing drastic to undo those 6 pounds. This is life. It will happen from time to time but I won't let it happen week after week.
While I didn't track, I was aware of what I ate, even the days I had ice cream numerous times. Yes, a cruise can be a dangerous place for a weight watcher, but I gave myself permission to cut loose and found that I didn't eat as much as I thought I might. I just plain don't feel good if I am too full and lord knows I don't want to outgrow my clothes!
At Monday's weigh in I was up 6.4 pounds. Based on how I feel this morning and by our home scale, I think part of that was water retention. My fingers felt pudgy on Monday and that is a definite sign for me. I'll know for sure how much damage my vacation did at my next weigh in. I have gone back to my new normal this week, nothing drastic to undo those 6 pounds. This is life. It will happen from time to time but I won't let it happen week after week.
Feeling regal enough to wear horizontal stripes later at Pirate Night on the Disney Cruise
With my favorite beach buddies
For my so-called friend who informed that I'd never get rid of the excess skin without surgery: See those bat wings (as you referred to them)? Bite them you lousy nay-sayer. I don't give a bat wing or a rat's hind end what you think. Don't like them? Look away.
Rare moments with my mouth closed (not smiling or laughing) although I do appear to me smirking in the first photo. I bet I was thinking that ice cream weight surely melts in the sun!
Monday, January 25, 2016
Pre-vacation weigh in
I missed weigh in last week due to illness and apparently didn't post here the week before that. I'm not bored, just busy. Not feeling compelled to write after every weigh in might be a sign of comfort rather than danger.
Trust me, that isn't likely to be a Weight Watcher philosophy but it is how I'm feeling right now and it is all good. I'm making better choices now quite naturally as opposed to reaching for something with little nutritional value and way too many points. I'm not a saint, I had REAL ice cream twice recently, but one scoop, not the cereal bowl that used to be a normal serving.
I will miss next week's weigh in because I will be on vacation. I expect I will eat a few things that I wouldn't be eating here at home, but I also expect to be much more active. The mentality of thinking I have to eat all that is on my plate because I paid for it is gone. I paid way too dearly in weight gain thinking that way for years.
Today's scale has me down 86.2 pounds. Yay me!
Onward and downward!
Trust me, that isn't likely to be a Weight Watcher philosophy but it is how I'm feeling right now and it is all good. I'm making better choices now quite naturally as opposed to reaching for something with little nutritional value and way too many points. I'm not a saint, I had REAL ice cream twice recently, but one scoop, not the cereal bowl that used to be a normal serving.
I will miss next week's weigh in because I will be on vacation. I expect I will eat a few things that I wouldn't be eating here at home, but I also expect to be much more active. The mentality of thinking I have to eat all that is on my plate because I paid for it is gone. I paid way too dearly in weight gain thinking that way for years.
Today's scale has me down 86.2 pounds. Yay me!
Onward and downward!
Thursday, January 7, 2016
Negative talk
My previous post was an upbeat one. This one isn't downbeat but is about negativity.
I hear people speaking negatively about themselves and it makes me sad. Some of these kind people would never said a bad word about someone else but are so hard on themselves. I know I've had some of those feelings about myself in the past, but not in recent years, at least not often. That hasn't changed because of weight loss. I liked myself 84 pounds heavier, I am simply healthier and proud of what I've accomplished now.
Negativity is around us, sometimes coming from people who simply don't realize what they're saying.
Just one dessert won't hurt.
You're going to blow away if you lose another pound.
You don't need to lose any more weight.
You're no fun anymore.
Short of being a drug addict or alcoholic and having an addicted friend tell you that just one {insert substance of choice here} won't hurt, no one clean and sober would tell you that one hit or drink won't hurt you. People who don't want to lose a dessert buddy or those who have never had a weight issue may not realize these remarks are inappropriate.
Beyond them, there are those who should know better but open their yaps anyway. Like the reformed smoker or drinker who seems to be on a mission to change everyone else, there are those who have lost weight and think they should comment on what you eat and weigh.
Should you be eating that?
How much did you say you lost? (somehow implying they don't believe the total)
What I am about to say is about someone within the organization where I have been so successful. I have debated about saying something to this person directly but A) I don't like confrontation unless I feel it is absolutely necessary and B) I will continue to encounter this person and this discussion could cloud the future.
I will call this person X and not reveal anything else about them. X sometimes works at the weigh in counter and sometimes subs as a speaker. There are many good qualities about X but some don't sit well with me and I recently discovered I am not alone.
Weight Watchers is not about shaming. They are not the food police. If you encounter WW personnel in a grocery store or restaurant, they are not there to judge you by what is in your cart or on your plate and vice versa. I say this in case someone is reading this entry, unsure about the WW program and thinks my comments about one person is representative of all. X is the only exception and on any given day, you might not recognize them from what I am about to say.
In speaking about this past holiday, X told the meeting that X and spouse were at an event where the spouse sat near a table of snacks and desserts. X told us that they went over to their spouse and told spouse to move from that seat because spouse had already had eaten 2 cookies.
THUD!
That wasn't just the sound of my jaw dropping, but of others around me. Thinking about this later, perhaps X and spouse watch out for each other and the comment was welcome by the spouse, but the way this was recounted to us was very judgmental and felt downright rude.
In my previous post I said that I did over indulge occasionally over the holidays, but was still mindful of what I was doing. The instances prior to X's meeting didn't make me feel happy, sad, guilty or mad. The two instances after X's story made me feel anger. I replayed X's story and felt they were judging me even without their eyes being present. It didn't help that X had been the person weighing me in with both gains.
Since I have not discussed this with X, they have no reason to know how I feel or how their comments were taken by those of us in attendance. The purpose of this entry isn't to bash someone but to let anyone who might be reading this (or to remind me) that each of us is in control of what we do. Whether X means to be judgmental or just sounds pompous while having good intentions, when we hear something negative we have two choices.
Speak up if it is something that needs to be stopped
-or-
Let it go and remind yourself that your opinion on how you are doing is the one that counts.
Having given this enough thought that I decided to write about it, if X speaks this way again about their spouse, I will say something during the meeting. If they aren't being unkind but just not telling their story well, they'll know how we members are hearing them and might chose their wording differently next time. If they are being pompous, they'll know that I see that and don't like it. Is that negative? No, it is standing up for myself and everyone who is on this journey.
I hear people speaking negatively about themselves and it makes me sad. Some of these kind people would never said a bad word about someone else but are so hard on themselves. I know I've had some of those feelings about myself in the past, but not in recent years, at least not often. That hasn't changed because of weight loss. I liked myself 84 pounds heavier, I am simply healthier and proud of what I've accomplished now.
Negativity is around us, sometimes coming from people who simply don't realize what they're saying.
Just one dessert won't hurt.
You're going to blow away if you lose another pound.
You don't need to lose any more weight.
You're no fun anymore.
Short of being a drug addict or alcoholic and having an addicted friend tell you that just one {insert substance of choice here} won't hurt, no one clean and sober would tell you that one hit or drink won't hurt you. People who don't want to lose a dessert buddy or those who have never had a weight issue may not realize these remarks are inappropriate.
Beyond them, there are those who should know better but open their yaps anyway. Like the reformed smoker or drinker who seems to be on a mission to change everyone else, there are those who have lost weight and think they should comment on what you eat and weigh.
Should you be eating that?
How much did you say you lost? (somehow implying they don't believe the total)
What I am about to say is about someone within the organization where I have been so successful. I have debated about saying something to this person directly but A) I don't like confrontation unless I feel it is absolutely necessary and B) I will continue to encounter this person and this discussion could cloud the future.
I will call this person X and not reveal anything else about them. X sometimes works at the weigh in counter and sometimes subs as a speaker. There are many good qualities about X but some don't sit well with me and I recently discovered I am not alone.
Weight Watchers is not about shaming. They are not the food police. If you encounter WW personnel in a grocery store or restaurant, they are not there to judge you by what is in your cart or on your plate and vice versa. I say this in case someone is reading this entry, unsure about the WW program and thinks my comments about one person is representative of all. X is the only exception and on any given day, you might not recognize them from what I am about to say.
In speaking about this past holiday, X told the meeting that X and spouse were at an event where the spouse sat near a table of snacks and desserts. X told us that they went over to their spouse and told spouse to move from that seat because spouse had already had eaten 2 cookies.
THUD!
That wasn't just the sound of my jaw dropping, but of others around me. Thinking about this later, perhaps X and spouse watch out for each other and the comment was welcome by the spouse, but the way this was recounted to us was very judgmental and felt downright rude.
In my previous post I said that I did over indulge occasionally over the holidays, but was still mindful of what I was doing. The instances prior to X's meeting didn't make me feel happy, sad, guilty or mad. The two instances after X's story made me feel anger. I replayed X's story and felt they were judging me even without their eyes being present. It didn't help that X had been the person weighing me in with both gains.
Since I have not discussed this with X, they have no reason to know how I feel or how their comments were taken by those of us in attendance. The purpose of this entry isn't to bash someone but to let anyone who might be reading this (or to remind me) that each of us is in control of what we do. Whether X means to be judgmental or just sounds pompous while having good intentions, when we hear something negative we have two choices.
Speak up if it is something that needs to be stopped
-or-
Let it go and remind yourself that your opinion on how you are doing is the one that counts.
Having given this enough thought that I decided to write about it, if X speaks this way again about their spouse, I will say something during the meeting. If they aren't being unkind but just not telling their story well, they'll know how we members are hearing them and might chose their wording differently next time. If they are being pompous, they'll know that I see that and don't like it. Is that negative? No, it is standing up for myself and everyone who is on this journey.
Three days have passed since I wrote the above portion of this entry. I've gone back and forth on the merits of sharing this and decided it is a good thing for me to do. This is probably all for naught as I don't think many are reading this, but as I said above, it will be a reminder to ME.
What clinched the decision was talking about WW with my knitting group last night. One woman has attended a few meetings where X has subbed and she knew immediately who I was referring to the minute I told the cookie story.
Onward with the journey
Downward with the scale numbers
Upward with a positive attitude!
Monday, January 4, 2016
The year to reach goal? I think so!!
I've sort of slipped in posting and keeping track of what number weigh in I'm on. Such is life.
The holidays weren't really a struggle but I did gain 1.5 pounds. Was I aware of what I was doing? Yes. I enjoyed what I ate and drank but stayed mindful of what I was doing. Had I not, that gain would have many times greater than 1.5 pounds!
If someone is reading this who is struggling with all issues of weight loss, 1.5 pounds gained might sound like nothing or it might sound like the beginning of the end. It is neither. It is cause and effect. A gain is reversible. As my leader Suzanne said today, we can't think of food as good or bad. A blouse isn't good or bad, but when shopping, we have to decide if the price of the blouse is within our budget.
Sometimes we are going to splurge because something just looks too scrumptious to pass up. A dinner with my sister-in-law wasn't terribly over point allotment, but a few other days like that contributed to the gain. I don't feel guilty. I didn't do anything bad. I will make other choices this week and the rest of the gain will disappear. I spend wisely, whether Smart Points or dollar bills, even if occasionally it doesn't look like I have a budget.
I will be going on vacation next month and need shorts and a bathing suit. I haven't had a flattering bathing suit in eons and last year's shorts were happily too large at the end of summer so online shopping ensued last night. Because it is hard to know for sure how a suit will fit and if it will flatter, I ordered one bottom and two tops from one store, and another top and bottom elsewhere. These five pieces were a ridiculous sum of money for someone who rarely gets in a pool but weather permitting, that is where I will be next month. Decency requires body parts to be covered. Vanity requires this to be achieved somewhat tastefully. If some combination of the suit separates fit this criteria, the expense will be a worthwhile splurge.
Having said all that and sounding positive, I need to talk about something negative. I will do that in a separate entry because I want this one to be strictly upbeat.
I am less than 15 pounds from the goal I've set at WW but I intend to go below that and see how that feels and works for me. Considering I didn't know if I could or would stick with WW when I rejoined in June of 2014, part of me can't believe I am able to say I am 15 pounds from that goal. Having lost 84 pounds (down .5 from that 1.5 gain) as of today, I am sure that I can achieve my goal this year!
Onward, downward and in a new suit once the mail arrives!
The holidays weren't really a struggle but I did gain 1.5 pounds. Was I aware of what I was doing? Yes. I enjoyed what I ate and drank but stayed mindful of what I was doing. Had I not, that gain would have many times greater than 1.5 pounds!
If someone is reading this who is struggling with all issues of weight loss, 1.5 pounds gained might sound like nothing or it might sound like the beginning of the end. It is neither. It is cause and effect. A gain is reversible. As my leader Suzanne said today, we can't think of food as good or bad. A blouse isn't good or bad, but when shopping, we have to decide if the price of the blouse is within our budget.
Sometimes we are going to splurge because something just looks too scrumptious to pass up. A dinner with my sister-in-law wasn't terribly over point allotment, but a few other days like that contributed to the gain. I don't feel guilty. I didn't do anything bad. I will make other choices this week and the rest of the gain will disappear. I spend wisely, whether Smart Points or dollar bills, even if occasionally it doesn't look like I have a budget.
I will be going on vacation next month and need shorts and a bathing suit. I haven't had a flattering bathing suit in eons and last year's shorts were happily too large at the end of summer so online shopping ensued last night. Because it is hard to know for sure how a suit will fit and if it will flatter, I ordered one bottom and two tops from one store, and another top and bottom elsewhere. These five pieces were a ridiculous sum of money for someone who rarely gets in a pool but weather permitting, that is where I will be next month. Decency requires body parts to be covered. Vanity requires this to be achieved somewhat tastefully. If some combination of the suit separates fit this criteria, the expense will be a worthwhile splurge.
Having said all that and sounding positive, I need to talk about something negative. I will do that in a separate entry because I want this one to be strictly upbeat.
I am less than 15 pounds from the goal I've set at WW but I intend to go below that and see how that feels and works for me. Considering I didn't know if I could or would stick with WW when I rejoined in June of 2014, part of me can't believe I am able to say I am 15 pounds from that goal. Having lost 84 pounds (down .5 from that 1.5 gain) as of today, I am sure that I can achieve my goal this year!
Onward, downward and in a new suit once the mail arrives!
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